My cystic fibrosis has given me a bad hand these past few months and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. I will start with my stomach, turns out I don't need a pacemaker because they found out that my stomach is twisted. Meaning its the wrong way round, why they haven't picked this up before I don't know. It means I'm now facing major surgery again and truth is I'm absolutely petrified because of my previous experiences. Also my lung function is slipping and it's bothering me quite a lot because its not my fault it's the pressure of my swollen stomach causing it to drop. Cystic fibrosis is really testing me at the moment because of this but also because 3 beautiful people have lost their lives due to cf in the last few weeks. It's affecting me emotionally because I'm struggling with coming to terms with my "fate" and it's also affecting my personal relationships with people, so overall it's a bit of a mess and I feel depressed 80% of the time. Well done cf you've won this round.
Grace x
